Okay soo I had a very very long tuesday... Might I say on of the most twisted in memory.

It started good woke up at davids, then went to take care of a few dogs for Heather... All that went well so then I went back to davids we got our stuff from his house then went to my moms... I picked up sharon then ran to the mall we were shopping there while david worked for a little bit... but of course it is fuckin christmas time and there are a million people pissing me off at the mall and millions of perfume fuckers spraying you with nasty ass smells, then you have dirty ass people coughing all over you so I say hell no we are going I want to go home shower and nap...

So I get home and what happens LOKI calls me and I have to go to his house for a meeting so I go to his house... we sit there smoke a little then talk about all the shit we still need to do for the fashions show.... then i tell him its 7 I gots to go... but now I cant leave just yet we have to go on a field trip to check out 2 night clubs... the first one was in the ghettttoooooooooooooooooooooo of bridgeport and I looked at him and refused to get out of the car lol then we went to the next place and it was soooooo pretty I love it so we are going to use that place now according to him... so now its about 9 and we are heading back to his house and I get a phone call from my mom..... I dont answer cause I did not want to be rude while I was in the car..... Soooooooo I try calling her back once I get into my car... she does not answer now i get scared so I call back and call back and call back finally by the 10th time she answers and she is in tears....

" Stac I don't know what to do I am heading to nanas now pop died!" WTF IS THAT HOW YOU TELL SOMEONE THEIR GANDFATHER DIED.... omg so now I am freaking out cause my mom just lost her husband 2 years ago around this time, now her father inlaw so I am freaking out for her I try to drive to my nanas from bridgeport I am getting totally lost..... By the time I get there...... my mom was there and so was my aunt patty... I was the only grandkid there out of 12 and they still had his body on the floor........... So I do my normal thing and turn into stone and just make coffee for people..... Eventually everyone shows and the funeral home came and picked him up..... but during all this the old guy who lived next door to my pops also had to go to the hospital cause he was having breathing problems omg what is happening today.....

So everyone is now numb and decideds to go home.... I follow david back to his moms house and we park in his drive way and just sit there its about 11pm at this point. Now here is where the day gets a little better. After sitting there for a while just talking and being goofy. then his friend chrissy and chris show up and we smoke a little in their car and just chill and chat ... ahhhhh I really needed that chill session.

The rest of the night after all those events went smooth but you know what gets me... all I wanted to do that day was take care of the dogs, do some shopping, then go home with my love and drive around town and look at christmas lights..... HOW DID ALL THIS OTHER SHIT HAPPEN?

Okay so I have been helping out my friend Dave for a couple of days now..... I am still oooober excited about this but..... He has me doing sooooo much haha and I have to do it in a quiet manner cause he does not want his assistant to know and get made I am basically doing her job LOL.

SOOOO... yeah I called all his models to meet with us Sunday to get fitted... we are also having another OPEN CASTING CALL for who ever missed it last week and I THINK YOU RP GIRLS SHOULD GO DOWN THERE ^__^.

But yeah I am really really excited about this project... tomorrow we are meeting up again to make his web page better and yeah soooo much to do its crazy.... OOOOOH then we have to decide FOOD, SEATING, CHAIRS, CURTAINS, OMG This is crAazy,,,,,, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Chrissy now I know how you feel planning your wedding lol I just don't plan wedding I plan FASHION SHOWS LOL

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG SOOOOOO MUCH GOING ON THIS WEEKEND I AM EXCITED.

Okay sooo yeah I am sitting here waiting for Trevor to get his ass ova here and pick my ass up lol....

TONIGHT~ 80's night at trevors with the poker gang... sure to be a fun night cant wait trevor says he picked out an outfit for me to wear haha scary but whatev I'm a trooper.

SATURDAY~ Going to chill with the family and then off to the casino to blow other peoples money and watch a comedy show lol.... The best part is the free food and spending money given to me by others pockets lol but thats how I roll sometimes lol.

SUNDAY~ OMG OMG OMG OMG This is going to be the best day of the week I am going with Dave C. to his casting call and I get to be his assistant for the day lol yay I love my gay men, and its even better cause I get a sneak peek at his models and some clothes for him up coming fashion show ^____^ I SOOOO EXCITED.

Well thats all for now. Nothing else interesting going on ...... oh except I might be getting my vapoizer sooner than later..... ^___^ haha so yeah me and David will split the cost so I get it in half the time lol AWESOOOOME.

OOOOH AND WTF IS UP WITH EVERYONE HAVING THE FLU............. I WILL NOT GET SICK..... SO IF YOU ARE SICK PLEASE STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME LOL THANKS XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Okay so I have not been to good at my daily updates haha o well, I knew that was not going to last long lol.

Well lets see whats new.......
        1. Ooooh me and david went on a little adventure to Norwalk and got lost, it was alot of fun, we go to walk around stew's after we went to utopia and I got a really kick ass sweater there.... I want to get david one now too ^__^  I LOVE HIPPIE CLOTHING.
       2. I did not get the job at Danbury hospital but o well, just means it was not ment to be... at least I know now how to have and amazing interview... damn you old ladies with more experience then me.. dont they realize I can run circles around you old bitches lol  sorry had to vent a little.
       3. MY HEAD IS CLEAR YAY... no more feeling of wanting to barf after I eat. my ADD is totally undercontrol and I am not forgetting shit every where I go lol. And my back is not hurting as much. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm YAY for self medication ^___^ I AM A FAN.
       4. OOOOH yeah and a Utopia I saw this awesome vaporizer that I totally want to get..... its awesome and totally remote control so for all my lazy moment I could just hit the remote then get up to get it when it is ready lol...... ahh hahaha wow that make me seem like a total slacker but what ev lol...

Well that is all for now...Took me two days to finish this entry but o well it counts as yesterdays and today's entry lol seeee I can do this everyday lol.

Okay so I am making ringtones fr everyone I know..... and a Giant mixed cd.....

HERES HOW TO PLAY IF YOU WANT TO ME IN IT  ^__^

1) Pick out 2 songs
2) One song is your all time favorite song
3) The second song, is a song you hear that reminds you of me...... and NO STACI'S MOM DOES NOT COUNT...............


Trevor~  his song~ new divide by linkin park
              Song that reminds him of me~ Bubbles by Linkin Park.......< this song was so awesome thank you Trevor.

Charles~ His song~ The Spirit Never Dies by Masterplan
                  Song that reminds him of me~ tryed stacis mom but I did not let him keep it lol.... so then he chose On a boat......<YAY FLIPPY        
                           FLOPPIES


I WANT MORE SONGS SO COME ON PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT YOU LIKE ^__^

I had to put this here so I do not forget what happened.  She was my ex-room mate and my best friend for years who basically disowned me for telling her boyfriend what I thought of him.  Ahhhhh tears please stop!

here it goes.......

All I want to know is why, I think I deserve that. Actually I know why. But the thing is, I just cant figure out how you can let your self be controlled again Jessica, I loved you more than anything and only wanted to see you happy and this is killing me inside, but you act like you are miss queen bee and he is soo controlling everything in your life, sure he might buy you things and make you "feel" loved, but you always are apologizing to him, making plans for when he is working night to hangout with friends, so he does not get mad and sneaking hangout time with bobby well you used to, How is that truly love, If he really loved you and did not think you were only there to look good on his arm he would let you be you, all I did wrong was say what I felt and to his face, but you know what, I had every right to say what I did cause jess you were the greatest thing in my life and all I ever hear is you complaining about him and crying so what am I supposed to think. God he tells you that you cant hang out with bobby, dont you think thats a problem. You say he is letting you be you, but is he really hell two of your best friends are out of your life completely. I hate to say this but now knowing how weak of a person you are, i must say I am devastated you are not in my life but if that is what makes you happy then so be it. now I dont need to constantly worry about you and hope you are happy, obviously you are happy in your own little world... well at least you keep telling yourself that.

Just remember next time you need help getting out of this relationship, you can count me out cause you officially showed that you are not a strong enough person to be yourself and standup for how you really feel.

So goodbye Jessica, its been fun, and you were an amazing friend and you have helped be in the worst times of my life and I like to think I have done the same for you. but I can no longer be here for you. Just remember you did this to yourself, I hope the rest of your life is a happy one, and maybe one day we might cross paths again, but just remember things will never be the same.

xoxo
Staci
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